Saturday, May 20, 2017

Dead Rose

Let's keep this private,no parents involved please.

I guess a lot of you have been curious about my dating life recently? I mean what happened to me and N? And who was the new guy, G?

Well, let's be clear then, there was never anything wrong with me and N. It was just that I took him for granted. I was in a  very content state because I've been treated and surrounded by love in my entire 4 years. And then, came G.

We met through a friend. You can say it was perfect timing because last semester was a very depressing semester for me. I've had so much going on in my studies. In every way possible. It was a total shit show for me. You can say I was 'bagaikan telur di hujung tanduk'. So you get the point, I was super stressed last semester.

Anyways, back to G. He was definitely a great listener. He always has a very optimistic way of life. You would think that a guy like him has his life sorted out but I was privileged to know him personally. All his insecurities and ambitions everything.

It all started out with a simple and persuasive valentine invite. Went out on a date at this very cosy Italian cafe here in Blacksburg. I just got out from a shitty lab,and he was there anxious. Somehow seeing him,made me happy. He was all dressed up,and there was me,sweatshirt,jeans and a messy bun. And yet, he was so kind to say that I looked pretty. What a guy. Things got even better. He surprised me with a bouquet of roses and a customised card. Charmed.

Then,spring break came. I was and always is broke. So all I planned to do was stay at home in Blacksburg. You know,just Netflix and chill. But then,he insisted on a trip. A trip to New York. His favourite place. A place where he told me, a place the place where he feels he truly belongs. I declined the offer as hard as I could, but this guy I tell you is good at persuasion. A true James Dean.

As you can see in my Instagram,I gave New York a 2nd chance. And I never looked back. It was the best week of my life. I know I went to New York once, but at that time I hated it so much. However, this time New York felt like home. We stayed at the Upper West Side in this cute tiny apartment. He brought me to all this streetwear shops that were scattered across Brooklyn. He held my hand throughout the entire trip. It just made me felt safe. He led the way through the entire streets of Brooklyn. There was this day,where we took the wrong subway, and ended up in China Town. So, being asians,we decided to get food and boba. And coincidently, he met this huge ass Bulbasaur. It was a plushie. Mine you it was huge! It was 2/3 of my weight, I think? Trust me. We carried that lil creature across Brooklyn bridge. It was the best 20 minutes of my life. At that bridge, I realised how vulnerable one can be. Knowing him, I know he was a very strong confident guy. But at the moment, he was so brave to tell me,that he was afraid of heights. I remember how brave he was to conquer his fear. At this one part of the bridge, we just stood their and admire the beautiful scenery of Brooklyn. At that particular time, I felt happy for once. I felt genuinely happy. Everything felt so perfect. Somehow,this guy right here, made USA home.For me.
The picture he took.

Then,as time went on, everything went on perfectly. But I guess it was just infatuation in his part. I know I was stupid to actually believed that there is such thing as true love at this God damn age. But it's ok. It hurts. I know,but G,

if you're reading this,I just want to thank you. For teaching me to see life in a very different view. My entire life, I've always believed that the only way to have a perfect life is to follow the plans and goals that I and the people around me have set. However, you, taught me that life should be lived with passion and optimism. With that everything will eventually will revolve around you, not for you.

I know it makes no sense,but you were the best I've ever had. Take care and Peace.

Saturday, February 4, 2017

Saturday, January 7, 2017

Make up fav 2016

Let's get real. I'm still new at the make up scene.  I used to despise make up. The thought of girls covering all their insecurities with this layer of make up seems pathetic. My old tomboy self would just skip any trip to Sephora whenever me and my girlfriends would hangout at the mall.

So press fast-forward and here we are ~

I'm actually excited to wear make up when I need too. Heck yeah, sometimes honestly , Abby and I would just do our make up sessions whenever we're just too stressed up studying. Mind you, that usually happens during mid-term and finals week. Weird ? I don't think so.

My make up skills are not up to par as my girlfriends but I'm progressing.. I'm not embarrassed to admit that I still ask for help with my make up. Hey, it's better to ask for help than to be stuck somewhere.

Anyways,enough with this chitty chatter.. I'm actually here to tell you my top 2016 make up.

These make ups are used for the pictures that I've taken throughout my 2016 year. You can see most of these looks at my Instagram profile : iambrenabuckland.

So here it goes ~

 Maybelline Fit me (Matte + Poreless Foundation)  
 You know how some foundations are just too dewy that it just doesn't cover up your face and making it all sticky? Well hooray ! This foundation here is nothing like that. It is matte ~ so it tends to be drying but that's nothing you can't fix. Just put on moisturiser before applying it. Problem solved *pats back* .  The good thing is it being matte it sticks and well the term pore-less there is for a reason... It doesn't clog your pores. I am a girl who gets really uncomfortable when using too thick of a foundation. So when I say that this layer of foundation is just right, you can trust me. It's so comfortable that sometimes you just don't realise that you have make up on.    


Maybelline Lash Sensational                                                                                                       

When I first started using make up I tried using this X drugstore brand of mascara but it's just too clumpy and thick that it makes my eyes heavy and sleepy? (Does that even make sense?) So because of that I started using high end mascaras such as Dior. They're the bomb. Try asking Bella Hadid,she'll agree. So being a student that I am, I can't afford to keep going on using high end products so after a month of carefully you-tubing I bought this mascara! It makes your eyelashes longer,I mean real long, that I don't really bother to put on those fake mascaras.  Definitely one of my best decision ever! It's not heavy and and and it clumps *sigh* but..... you can apply the mascaras 2-4 more times and the clump just goes away!! So that's great!

Anastasia Beverly Hills Pomade      
 I guess I don't have to review this one that much because all the youtubers are raging about it. I mean it applies easily and well with the help of the brush you won't go wrong. Just don't push it too hard when applying, it'll make your brows like a drawing/sticker on your face. HAHA.

Maybelline Instant Age Rewind Concealer 

 I bought this for my recent trip to California and well it changed my life. It does everything that a concealer has to do. It's not thick and sticky. And with that roller on the bottom it's easily applied without using all those brushes anymore. Just use that beauty blender for the finishing the touches.

Marc Jacobs 40 Mirage Filter (Contour kit)                                                                               

The powder is a bit flaky but I like the fact that it's pigmented. The texture of the powders makes it easily blendable on your face with just a few swipes of the brush. And well the colour of the contours just suit my tan brown skin. It's hard for me to find contour sets that matches my skin!!!!!!! Trust me girls when those dark contour colours don't match... they look like patches on your face and that is soo memalukan! There was this one time someone tegur-ed me when I was in a wedding. Argh. Dah la cakap kuat lagi tu. *self confidence went down sekejap*

Lorac Pro Eyeshadow Palette 3                                                
  I'm still a newbie and well that answers what type of palette this is. Yup, it's a nude colour palette with shimmers. With the help of videos from youtube I get to combine and play with those colours!( except not on canvas but on my eye lids. Ahaha makes me feel like I'm a walking painting. )  Lorac is known for its pigmentation and blendable eyeshadows!With just 2 pat of the brush, the colours just stick on your eyes. The colours well are just gorgeous. The range of nudes in these palettes are just beautiful. Maybe I'm bias but the nudes there might be a bit better than the Tartelette bloom palette.

Hourglass Lighting Powder                                                                                                       

 I've been searching for a great highlighter for a while now and I was so lucky to found a $20 dollar highlighter. It's a travel size but hey it's enough for me. The shimmer is not the 'dangdut' shimmer. It's so high end. The sparkle of the shimmers scream classy! Not to over the top but subtle and that's what I want!

Kylie lip kit (shade Ginger)                                                                                                       

 I've always liked nudes. But being dark.. some nudes are just too light.. making me look cancerous. So I tried giving brown a try. And guessed what?? I'm in love with it. My mom says I look weird but I'll stick with my opinion. The Kylie lip kit is drying but I like the fact that the colours stays on my lips even after eating a bowl of kuey tiaw soup. It's undeniably hard to deny that it is drying but again just use chapsticks first. Who likes dry lips? No one. It's not kissable.  Ask Kylie,she knows what she's doing.

Trust me, I've been using them this whole year and you can judge it by the 'kotorness' of these make up! Ahaha.  If you want to see the looks that I've created from it just look at my photo-book at the bottom. But hey,if you guys want a step by step tutorial just comment below. I'll try. 

Oh I'm currently looking for a primer. Any recommendations? It doesn't matter whether it's a high end or a drugstore primer. Thanks!
Till then take care guys!